Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Alrighty then

Well, I can't see through my right eye. It's making typing a bitch, and my depth perception is now thrown completely. Goddamn, I don't think it's ever gonna heal and being crippled in this line of business gets you killed so easily...

My wife had to save my ass because- shit- how could I have not known my parents were involved? I mean, hell, everyone else I ever knew has been either killed or taken by it, so it would make sense that it got to my parents. Hehe, I was stupid, you guys. A real fuck up. I fuckin' broke rule number one of running for your life: trust no one.

Damn, I guess...it's my parents, y'know? And I don't know how long this thing has had control over them cause'

I can't remember anything.

Might as well say it now since my daughter and her buddies seem so keen on slapping me in the face with this bit of info. Hehe, you guys don't know me- I don't even know me. Everything I know of...well, let's just say it's back to my marriage with Cathy and everything before that is...not gone, but blurry. Fuzzy. Can't make out specific images and shit. My parents- fuck, now I see how messed up this is- my parents had to tell me all about my past when I married Cathy because one morning I woke up and it was all gone.

But I can remember those eleven years. Very clearly. Heh. Six years. Six long years. Everything is falling apart. Cathy wants to go visit her grandma, my parents clearly tried to kill me or hand me over to it, and my daughter is seeing dead best friends. And I'm sittin' here wishing I could remember what was normal life before all of this happened and I can't. I don't have any old memories of being safe and secure to draw on and pretend everything is gonna be okay. And maybe that's for the best cause' at least I don't delude myself into thinking we're all gonna be alright.

We're all dead. It's just a matter of when we die and how we die. Just pray you don't kick the bucket soon and if you go down, go down swinging, kicking, screaming bloody murder, and taking as many bastards as you can.

I got a bad feeling about everything. Cathy agrees- it feels like there's something bigger than I originally thought going on. And we have no idea what the hell it is, but we're gonna try and find out.

22 comments:

  1. Tony, a lot of us have been feeling the same way. A good number of us have been saying, or receiving messages, about a storm coming. Whether that storm refers to Him attacking us all in full force, Him unleashing his army of proxies, or something even worse than all of that, we don't know. But now is the time for us to really get ourselves together, and prepare for the worst.

    And I am like you: if something terrible happens, I'm not going out without a fight. Whether it's defending my family, my friends, other fighters/runners, or even stepping out there and sacrificing myself to help anybody else get away, I'm going to make sure that I go out doing something important.

    You and Cathy, be safe.

    -Lucien

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  2. I find it very interesting that originally Cathy had no memories of her early childhood and now you've admitted that you have no memories of most of your life. But you remembered enough about our mutual stalker to start running when Cynthia was born?

    Take care of Cathy best you can Tony. It would kill me if anything happened to her.

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  3. Lucien- Hehe, yeah, you give them hell in return for being annoying assholes. You keep safe too.

    Kay- It's not something I would go around talking about to every person I come across. Up until now it didn't matter whether or not I remembered, I just had to run. But then Cathy and Cynthia got involved and now my parents and the other minions are pointing out how I can't remember anything, and it just seems a lot more important for me to try and get rid of the haze.
    See, thing is...I don't remember him as a kid. I basically recall seeing this tall /thing/ everywhere, but no one else could see him, even when he was in the goddamn room with Cathy and I. After a year of this, of being followed and falling into paranoia and finding dead animals everywhere I went, I figured this thing wasn't good news. So running seemed like the best option to keep it away. At least, that's what I remember feeling like.
    My parents told me what I was like as a kid. They said I used to talk all the time about a man in a suit.

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  4. Tony. Don't die. You're the only hope the smart ones willing to listen to jackasses have now.

    Be safe.

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  5. Well obviously you wouldn't discuss your memory issues with random strangers on the internet, but my point is more that you've both had memories from your childhood wiped, the two of you met and had a child together, your parents (if they are your parents) seem to know something about Cathy's family...it's all too much of coincidence in my opinion.

    I think the connection between the two of you might go beyond that of a marriage and a child and you never even knew it.

    What I find extra frightening right now is that as far as we know, Cynthia is the first child to be turned as opposed to just be killed. Deities, it kills me that my paranoia has gotten so high that I can be aware that I sound like a nutcase out of a B movie right now, but again, what if that's not a coincidence?

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  6. Jekyll- Hehe, thanks kid. You too.

    Kay- Well, yeah, those are some odd coincidences. I don't know which is just coincidence and which are planned, but it looks like we aren't the only ones feeling uneasy about what happened/has been happening. And I know Cynthia is one of the only children to not be killed....trust me, I don't get it either. But that just means we have a chance at getting her back.
    You keep speculating, it helps the both of us when other people actually take a few guesses cause' they could end up being right. That and other people generally see things in a different perspective we didn't think of.

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  7. Well then I'll just go with the most out there possible and work my way down. What if it wanted the two of you to have a child? What if you were both somehow manipulated into that?

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  8. Who planted the Garden of Earthly Delights?

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  9. That's a painting by Hieronymus Bosch, but since it's of Eden that would mean that God planted it, right?

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  10. I'm the one asking the questions here. What answer are you offering?

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  11. Who planted the Garden of Earthly Delights?

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  12. ...God. You said "planted", so I'm going with God. Final answer.

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  13. And I'll say Hieronymus Bosch, just for safety. XD

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  14. Jeroen Anthoniszoon van Aken - I'll throw in his birth name for good measure.

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  15. Haku gets this one, I'm afraid. Sorry, Alora, but there is more to the triptych than just the Garden of Eden. Vivere disce is next.

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  16. Well, one of us got it, and that's what matters...

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  17. Well fuck, I check my blog and see some crazy has taken it for a joy ride. Should I be flattered or pissed off? Eh, whatever, hope you kids are getting the right answers, cause I have no idea how the hell you know all this stuff.

    Kay- What, you think tall and faceless wanted Cathy and I to have a kid? Why the hell would it want that?

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  18. Not a damn clue, but there's obviously something special about her that she's not dead. Or maybe not it, but one if its cults wanted it. Like I said start with the craziest thing I can think of and roll from there.

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  19. I feel like I just ran miles- this Nocturne person really knows how to rile people up, jeez.
    Got any other ideas? I don't think Cathy and I were involved with any kind of cult, and I really don't think our daughter is anything special.

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  20. I'm not quite ready to let go of the theory of her being somehow special. First ever child proxy means something. But even dropping the cult idea, we don't know how long your parents have been proxied for. Who knows what they might have manipulated you into doing.

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  21. Have there really never been other child proxies? I've seen kiddies possessed by that thing before, so it's nothin' now. I don't know why it would wanna manipulate Cathy and I into having a kid. I'll try to remember anything I can, but right now I'm drawing blanks. Any other ideas?

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  22. Not at the moment, but I'll keep posting them to you or Cathy as they come.

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