It seems like everything about this fucked up situation is a
joke. Since the beginning everything just went wrong. I mean how does a life like this even happen? Hell, how was
I not killed in the beginning? Do I got the best luck or the worst luck?
Now that’s a good question.
Thought I couldn’t feel anymore. My head got so fucked up by
everything, all the forgetting and the time skips, waking up and not
remembering how I traveled states overnight, torturing people but feeling like
I was torturing myself. Thought I couldn’t feel. I guess, I mean Ray died and
Ava died too right? I didn’t have friends, but I guess I did and didn’t even
realize it until they were gone. Funny how that works.
Guess I forgot I had a wife too. Only realized how much I
loved her when she…
I wonder if I still got a daughter. She might hate me now.
You messed up Cathy—it’s a boy, Cathy. He’s beautiful,
Cathy. Looks like his mommy and, heh, I think that’s better personally
speaking.
This is my final entry.
What do I remember at this point? I’m Anthony Delmont, or
Tony for short. For the longest time the police and my family thought I was
dead. I ran for eleven…twelve years now…from a monster that ruined my life, my
parents lives, my friends lives, my wife’s life and my children’s lives. I have
two kids. A boy and a girl. I have one friend who’s still living. My wife is
I drove to the meeting place with Simon. It was in the
middle of the woods. I don’t know what I was expecting—maybe another firey
showdown, another chance for Cynthia to be free from everything, another lost
limb. Heh, losing a limb would have been a lot better.
Thought Cynthia was staying at the house, mad in her room.
Turns out she stowed away in the trunk of the car. It’s a lousy trunk—never
locked properly. I was furious that she came with us because there was no time
to take her back. I heard screaming coming from the distance and we had to
follow. We came on this little abandoned two story house. Had vines growing in
and around it, graffiti spray painted everywhere, and a bad vibe. But we had to
go in. I told Cynthia to go wait in the car but when we turned around I swear I
couldn’t tell where we came from. It’s like the car never existed, there were
just trees everywhere and it was dizzying.
Outside wasn’t safe. We had to go inside. Had to take
Cynthia with us, couldn’t leave her alone. Simon had a gun and lent another
one to me, and he gave Cynthia this taser that he had on him and told her to
use the shot wisely. Use it wisely…still not sure what he was doing. I think he
was just trying to hold it together, probably assumed we were all dead. I don’t
think he ever thought anyone would actually die though. I don’t think I did either.
It was all empty downstairs. But the screaming, that came
from upstairs. And I knew who was screaming. I knew god help me I knew but I
didn’t know why she was screaming. Didn’t want Cynthia to follow me so I told
Simon to get his back to a corner and protect her with his life. Ran upstairs.
And she was there.
I found her again and I could’ve protected her and gotten her away from all of this. I swear I could
have. She was just in so much pain
and bleeding too much. There was just too much of it and it had gone on for too
long. It was covering her legs and her waist and when she saw me she begged me
to come help her, crying and whimpering. I practically collapsed onto my knees
next to her and dropped my gun—I didn’t care if she wanted me dead or not
because that was my wife no matter what
happened, my goddamned wife
I loved her I swear I loved her
There was something wrong with the baby. She kept saying it
was trying to claw its way out, that it was special and that I had to save it.
Save her. She wanted me to save her. She was in so much pain and she was so
scared. The monster was coming for her, she said, it was coming for her baby
and it was going to take it away. But you wouldn’t let that happen, would you
Anthony? You love me, don’t you, Anthony? Please Anthony, please make it stop,
make the pain stop.
I’m dying Anthony.
You can’t fix me, Anthony.
Save me, Anthony. Save me, save me, save me…please.
She told me that it was too late for her. She was in too
deep and there was no getting out of it except for one way. One way. Tell
Cynthia I love her so, so much, and Mommy wishes she could have been a better
mother, one that protected her no matter what. Tell Simon that he’s a great man
no matter who says different and he’s the best policeman she’s ever met. Tell
me—tell Anthony—I love you. No matter who we met and what we did and what happened,
I love you and you’ve done such a good job, Anthony. You’re going to be an
amazing father. It’s okay, it’s okay. It’s alright, please just do it. I love
you.
Bang.
One shot to the head. She was smiling as I did it. Always
smiling. I wish I could have smiled back, given her some reassuring look, told
her that it wasn’t gonna hurt, that all the bad stuff just…disappeared. It’s
all better now, you’re happier where you are, that thing can’t hurt you anymore
because it’ll never be able to reach Heaven.
I got the baby out Cathy. I had a knife and…I didn’t even
know what I was doing I just killed my wife.
Cynthia and Simon, I could hear them running up the stairs, so I took my knife
and I cut him out, I saved your baby—our baby. Got the biggest, bluest eyes
I’ve ever seen. Don’t think I made the best first impression though. Daddies
aren’t supposed to cry as bad as their child, right?
I don’t remember much of what happened after. Cynthia took
the boy from me and held him while Simon…buried Cathy. We didn’t see the
monster. We didn’t see the Caretaker. We didn’t see anything and that made it
worse. There was only one monster, wasn’t there? The entire time? One monster
who could smile like a person and joke with other people and put on the perfect
disguise.
Cathy—Catherine, if you can somehow see this way up there,
I’ll take care of them. I’m so sorry. I should have been there, I should have saved you.
A lot of could have, should have and would haves.
I’m leaving. We’re leaving. This is my final entry. For
those of you who are still fighting this thing, god help you because we can’t.
Just promise me...heh, for the sake of everyone who’s fought
this far, you’ll keep your asses out of trouble.
Good luck.